"The days are long but the years are short".
There is no way to fully prepare yourself for becoming a Mom. All I ever wanted to be when I grew up was just that, a Mom. You can talk to other Mom's to get advice, read books and look to your own Mother, but nothing can prepare you for the long nights, long days, endless dirty diapers, acid reflux, colic, teething etc. Then the real parenting comes into play starting around 18 months with countless tantrums, potty training, talking back, hitting, yelling, the list goes on.
Being a Mom is hard. It means sacrificing your life for these little people that fully depend on you. Its exhausting, somedays I just want to sleep, like all day. I wish I could clone myself so I can take a nap and my clone can take care of the kids, do dishes, laundry, make dinner, clean the house. Being a Mom will push all your buttons and make you feel like a crazy person. Some nights I lie in bed replaying my day and can't remember specifically why it was so hard but just know it was.
Time is not on your side. I wish I had more of it to spend with my husband, my friends, family, my second job, get ready for the day, hobbies, or just be by myself doing whatever the heck I feel like.
Being a Mom is also the best thing that has ever happened to me. The love I have for these tiny humans is overwhelming. I just finished putting my 10 month old down for a nap, nursing her I suddenly burst into tears. The long night I had with her waking every couple hours and not wanting to be put down was exhausting. As I watched her drift off to sleep I couldn't help but feel so much love for this little life. What a miracle she is, God formed her in my body and gave me the privledge of being her Mama.
I need these two babies just as much as they need me and at times that can be overwhelming and scary and hard, its also the best feeling in the world. God equipped me with the ability to be just that, they're Mama.
I'm not the best writer and I wish I had more words to express all my thoughts and feelings but this will have to do for now. I'm writing this not only for myself but for all you other Mama's out there. I have been so blessed by other Mama's in my life and even strangers with words of encouragement.
Even just validating my unspoken feelings, telling me "I know how hard it is when they are this little, your doing a great job".
"Keep up the good work, your a great Mom".
Those few simple words mean so much to me in this time of my life. So to all my Mama friends-
You are enough. You are being the best Mom you can be to YOUR kiddos. Keep up the good work and remember the days are long but the years short.